well so its july, moving slowly as i opened this blog back in march!! someone special told me they'd love it if i blogged again. wellllllll............

okay so life keeps marching forward, changing, challenging. i am so thankful to see God at work all around me. for natalie's brother & his new journey with Christ, for the new creation he has become because of Christ's work on the cross........for little precious judah and all that he has accomplished in the few short weeks of his life!! all because God is in control, watching, guiding, loving, holding. each and every one of us. for aaron & lydia and their new journey into married life. for all God brought them through to bring them together. for andrew, natalie, phil and amy and the years they have completed as spouses already. for their faithfulness to each other, their desire to honor God with their marriage. for those precious, priceless 6 little beings that are my grandkids. oh how they lit up my life with their antics, conversation, belly laughs, smiles, yes even their carnal moments make me giggle!! then theres my hubby of 35 yrs. who has been by my side, through the thick & thin of it all. i love him and thank God for him. it wasn't but a few wks. ago when my back was bad that he stayed up with me, and was just very tenderhearted toward me. now it's my turn as his back is bad & i don't know that i've been sooo sweet as the days have turned into a wk!

so life moves forward, with a new path ahead, at least a new place to hang my belongings in the near future. not all of this path is clear either. there are unknowns, fears, frustrations. i know i need to look at the God that has been by my side all these years whether i felt it always or not. and feelings by the way are sooo fickle! undependable! so i need to step out, just one step at a time, with the One who has not changed, even if i've been disappointed, He never changed. His promises remained intact. i have been tried, sifted, and this will continue through my life. He wants me to be more like Him, draw near to Him when pressures hit, to rest in Him. i'm His child, slow to learn, to even choose that next step He has placed before me. i'm super thankful for His patience, loving kindness, & mercy. for i am a sinner saved by grace. He is perfection yet wants relationship with us all. amazing grace!!!!

so you see i have much to be thankful for & do see God at work around me. its just that when i look closer to my situation it feels